And They Flew Away !!!

She lies in her blissful sleep totally unaware she would miss a familiar face at the very least for 3 years. she would grow up in that time frame, lose her milky white teeth and probably speak a smattering of languages that he may never hear in his lifetime.

He recalled how he felt when he first picked her up gingerly from her creche. she weighed a measely 3.4 kgs but even at that young age her eyes sparkled a lot. Just like his own, they told an herewith untold story. the deep pools mired anyone who would care to look into them, beguile them and towards the end hypnotise them with alarming swiftness.

He missed her growing up years as he was away abroad but towards the later part when he returned he was fascinated by her. To him she was a stress buster and to just see her bundle of energy made him realise how much more life's got to offer. God was merciful and a couple of years later she was gifted a partner in crime. They never ceased to amaze him, and the new entrant made him see first hand what he had missed when he was away.

Taking them to school, outings, parks, malls etc were a part and parcel of the varied roles he played. he was strict when it came to discipline but it was a known fact that he loved them more than anything else. they were a part of his family tree and a tree with its varied branches looks best than a shirivelled one.

Tonight as he put them to sleep for the last time, he couldnt help but stare at those loving faces. incidents funny and likewise that he was witness to, the pride he felt as they took each stride in their life all stared at his face and his face glowed, a lambency unrivaled by any other source.

Its time for the birds to fly away. a new land awaits and his birds have gathered enough strengths in their wings to face any tide. after all a ship in the harbour is safe, BUT thats not what ships are for !!!

Far away across the seas in a scenic land awaits someone. someone who probably has more rights over them than he does as this person plays the pivotal role of a father in their lives. Its high time he gets access to them. He has been away just trying to build a future for them and his efforts are beginning to bear fruit. He was sure the father must be rubbing his hands in glee anticipating their arrival in a couple of hours from now and he was only too glad to facilitate the process.

He will miss his dearies and he knows when they grow up they may not even remember his face, but he certainly is glad he did the best he could for them while they were around. For now someone who has waited long enough needs their presence and its just right that they move ahead and out from their comfort zones.

As he laid down to rest with his dearies on either side he once again relished the closeness and happiness that they have bought for people within and outside of his family tree. In a couple of days from now even his future would be decided and he is just glad they flew off before he did.

Parting is never easy but this was one parting that he was glad they undertook before he did.

Good bye my lovely duckies, till fate brings us face to face let me just remain a shadow in your lives.....

A Slice Of Life...

A slice of life …

It wasn’t long ago when he made the first trip. He could feel the dampness around his eyes as the swiss air flight took off, he had promised he wont come back but he did just the same way he went “Empty Handed”. The only priceless thing he carried back was a “scroll” that read Master of Science in Telecommunications and Information Systems.

3 years down the line life has become a ball for him. First he got offers from 2 major corporations for a 6 figure salary, and second he got the thing he wanted desperately some months back. His passport to the place he dreamt to be seven seas away…

Today he stands fixed at the same spot he was some years go. Maybe his experience abroad has left him wiser and more toned down to realities or maybe he is a coward and he cant face what’s staring right at his face.

He made a call late night to tell someone he deeply respects and care for about the quandary he was in, when he heard the ecstasy sounds and the loud cheers he changed his mind. Somehow in light of their happiness his problems seemed so mediocre. Everyone he deeply cared for and spoke to just seemed too happy for him and then he knew his trepidation just didn’t hold any prominence.

Maybe he is afraid or maybe he believes his jinx will carry forward across the seven seas. There are so many memories that he wants to leave behind, somehow they all have found a way to catch up with him especially when he is in such a state.

Long ago he had mastered nobility by shunting down his desires and walking ahead with a smile in the face of a fate he knows would have been his. Winning for him isnt tragic but if he loses it means facing a familiar position again.

That explains why he still retains her phone number and memories tho they are no longer friends. The remembrance is also a part of the paraphernalia that teaches him a very important lesson as to “how much it hurts to love someone too much and not being loved in return”

In anycase for all that he knows he may win again because of the dogged spirit that he has or maybe he wont. But he will go ahead and do it.

He realised its always going to be this way for him. It was a rather conscious decision that his life was for others and what he is going to do next is the least he can do.

And suprisingly all this ostensibly for “having a slice of life” that he may never call his …

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Technically competent ! Technology wise clumsy !

My background is technology and I am proud of the fact, I work for the high tech industry. Sometimes I do feel narcisst to the extent of believing that I was born to work for this industry. But look at me now. I am terrified of technology of lately.

Guess why?? At the rate at which it keeps changing, what I feel is up to date information is obsolete any second. To top it all thing’s keep changing, what worked like this one moment works like that the other or doesn’t work at all and so on. Honestly my niece can handle the TV remote much better than I do. Today I am more terrified of high tech gadgets than I was a year ago.

Forget all that even this draft is written on a 13 year old word processor and unknown to me there is an autosave button that’s activated every 3 minutes and thus saves me the botheration of having to press control+S to save my draft everytime.

I didn’t even know the fact that increasing the virtual memory page file would allow me to multi task faster inspite of the fact that we all use memory management to balance load across our servers and workstations.

I mean I had read about it, but I wasn’t even aware that my lappie could be set the same way as I set a high end work station at work albeit with a subtle difference here and there.

Finally I concluded “it’s all fiction folks !!”. My knowledge about technology is as good as my understanding of the share market is as also equities, mutual funds and the works. If something I talk about especially on the technology front makes any sense to anyone or seriously approaches anywhere close to accuracy, it's probably a mistake!!!.

But I admit, technology itself is very real. I had the great luxury of working in this industry and I plan to be a part of it as long as I can. To be working here is all about being as creative as you can get. I do make mistakes and have got my behind kicked too, but all said and done, my work is all about knowing myself.

Each day a discovery, each second a growth, each working day a test of my dexterity. I adore technology and I must confess that given a chance I would still want to work in this industry than any other.

Thanks to the challenges that this industry gives, I guess I am quite ok with the fact that I know so less. I have met and faced so many challenges that the lesson they taught and the positive outcome they have had on my attitude is unrivaled by any other.

With reasons as this, I guess I still would want to continue in this industry than try my hand at any other, however good my skillset for the same be….

Aaah technology here I come………..