Wednesday, March 21, 2007

A Slice Of Life...

A slice of life …

It wasn’t long ago when he made the first trip. He could feel the dampness around his eyes as the swiss air flight took off, he had promised he wont come back but he did just the same way he went “Empty Handed”. The only priceless thing he carried back was a “scroll” that read Master of Science in Telecommunications and Information Systems.

3 years down the line life has become a ball for him. First he got offers from 2 major corporations for a 6 figure salary, and second he got the thing he wanted desperately some months back. His passport to the place he dreamt to be seven seas away…

Today he stands fixed at the same spot he was some years go. Maybe his experience abroad has left him wiser and more toned down to realities or maybe he is a coward and he cant face what’s staring right at his face.

He made a call late night to tell someone he deeply respects and care for about the quandary he was in, when he heard the ecstasy sounds and the loud cheers he changed his mind. Somehow in light of their happiness his problems seemed so mediocre. Everyone he deeply cared for and spoke to just seemed too happy for him and then he knew his trepidation just didn’t hold any prominence.

Maybe he is afraid or maybe he believes his jinx will carry forward across the seven seas. There are so many memories that he wants to leave behind, somehow they all have found a way to catch up with him especially when he is in such a state.

Long ago he had mastered nobility by shunting down his desires and walking ahead with a smile in the face of a fate he knows would have been his. Winning for him isnt tragic but if he loses it means facing a familiar position again.

That explains why he still retains her phone number and memories tho they are no longer friends. The remembrance is also a part of the paraphernalia that teaches him a very important lesson as to “how much it hurts to love someone too much and not being loved in return

In anycase for all that he knows he may win again because of the dogged spirit that he has or maybe he wont. But he will go ahead and do it.

He realised its always going to be this way for him. It was a rather conscious decision that his life was for others and what he is going to do next is the least he can do.

And suprisingly all this ostensibly for “having a slice of life” that he may never call his …

11 Comments:

At Thursday, March 22, 2007 at 12:17:00 AM GMT+5:30, Blogger Priya said...

Buddy,

Is everything ok??

shunting down his desires and walking ahead with a smile in the face of a fate he knows

-C'mon you don't have to shut it off and lock your desires just becoz others don't know you. You have every right to be who you are and live as you live. We change for the cause and we know the reasons.

 
At Thursday, March 22, 2007 at 12:19:00 AM GMT+5:30, Blogger Priya said...

“how much it hurts to love someone too much and not being loved in return”

- I know how it feels and the words come straight from your heart.

To get hurt is like getting "F" up and it really disturbs our mind. But we need to move on buddy.

 
At Thursday, March 22, 2007 at 12:22:00 AM GMT+5:30, Blogger Priya said...

conscious decision that his life was for others

-I have to disagree. Only when you love yourself, then you can think of others right.

The slice is you who can make it sweet.

 
At Thursday, March 22, 2007 at 8:28:00 AM GMT+5:30, Blogger Priya said...

Is everything fine ther buddy??

 
At Thursday, March 22, 2007 at 9:54:00 AM GMT+5:30, Blogger The Avenger !!! said...

@ priya /-

Aah Ms Canada, yep it is. Right now I am going through a myriad amt of feelings as you can make out.

I choose the best resort I had. First write them down (hence the post) and second take each second as it comes. :)

So the result is happy mornings, busy afternoons, moody evenings and nostalgic nights :)

All this for a Slice of Life :)

 
At Thursday, March 22, 2007 at 10:03:00 PM GMT+5:30, Blogger Priya said...

Thanks for letting me know things are fine at your end buddy.
Tk.

 
At Friday, March 23, 2007 at 11:23:00 AM GMT+5:30, Blogger The Avenger !!! said...

@ priya /-

Anytime pri, I am glad you asked :)

 
At Saturday, March 24, 2007 at 3:32:00 PM GMT+5:30, Blogger Anupama said...

Well... I dunno what to comment on this, was really touching...
Just want to say
Life Goes On :) All the best

 
At Monday, March 26, 2007 at 10:44:00 AM GMT+5:30, Blogger The Avenger !!! said...

@ anupama /-

Yeah true, just that at times you dont want to move but just stop and think about it a while before you take the next step...

 
At Thursday, April 5, 2007 at 12:59:00 AM GMT+5:30, Blogger diyadear said...

u have to let go avenger.. yes it is painful, but happy days will be back again.. just let go n smile..

 
At Thursday, April 5, 2007 at 3:16:00 PM GMT+5:30, Blogger The Avenger !!! said...

@ diya/-

thanks dee, I guess I have started to live again to an extent...

 

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