Tuesday, August 11, 2009

A target to reach in my life time !!!

she works double shifts now .. blame it on the recession .. even government firms are not hiring .. not just that your options are pretty much limited. just like the western countries, age and experience are being frowned upon. Well maybe not in all cases but surely to an extent.

Sure i do not have any official word on this, nor would i care because quite frankly i would just go with her word on this. i do not see a reason as to why at an age when she should be playing with her grand kids each of them adorable and equally demanding.. she works 12 - 14 hours shifts

I would dare not ask her like i do to some that if its not estimated well and takes more effort then its not your problem but the project managers as I usually do .. i would dare not ask her why is she so concerned about her job when government firms are notorious for lethargic workers and bureaucracy and where strictly a 9-5 job still remains the norm.i would dare not ask her to settle into retirement and rest her tired feet and i would dare not ask her why she needs the money as anything she needs i can send .. you know why ?

Its because I am her product. As i sit and crib and balk about inefficient project managers, bottom huggers as colleagues and large scale groupism from certain sections of my own community who seem to be everywhere around here , i realise she does not even have half the comforts that i am getting

She sits under a 1940's ceiling fan, that still needs a huff and puff to get started, she works with archaic documents and volumes that require looking into multiple sources for single entry and worst of all she still takes the peak hour squishy trains to get to work.

I am her product yet i do not look half refreshed at the end of a 12 hour shift most of which i spend staring at a blue machine .. i drive a sedan to work and i sit in an air conditioned cube with tools to get information with a few clicks, yet i am more worried, more tired and far older for my age. as for the money, if i am not mistaken, I roughly make about 6 times the amount she makes post taxes ...

As i muddle to get through another working day, i look back and see her face, its radiant, its charming and she is all geared up to face another day. Her energies are all cdirected towards what comes next and how to tackle it, yesterday is gone, tommorrow might never come and today is what is true .. today demands her attention and thats pretty much about it

I i cant mimic her atleast to some extent, what a sad case it would be ... This one is for you "Mom" if i ever become even half as successful as you are, I would consider it to be a life well spent ....

Here's Wishing you a very Happy Birthday Mom ....